Still it bothers me
an I know I shouldn't let it but I can't really help it. I told him I didn't care cause really I don't but it's things like "I talk to your mom/dad/sister more than I talk to you cause you never write me back" or some shit like that and then it bothers me. It doesn't bother me that she's going to dinner with his parents but what she says on his comments and shit bother me. There is no reason at all for her to really be talking to them as intimatley as she does and yet she does it. What makes me laught the most is that she's married and pregnant with her husbands baby and she's more worried and friendly about my man's parents then she is with her own. What does that say about her? Maybe I'm just overreacting like usual but seriously it's things like up top that bother me cause it makes it seem like she's his woman or something. I hate that she gets to me, it seriuosly pisses me off!! But how would you take it though? Would you be as irritable with her as I am or am I just taking it too far. I try not to let her get to me because it's a waste of energy and like I told him this morning, in the end he comes home to me anyways. Is it petty of me to be irritated at a broad that doesn't count for shit. I dunno. Whatever. Alright now that I have vented I feel a little better but I'm sure I'll be back later tonight when I can't sleep. Lol..
Labels: Bitch, Him., Homecoming, Iraq
I'm just so, so
damn excited! I can't seem to sleep or think of anything else except that it is 2 days until he comes home. 2 days!! I'm about to go take a run to get rid of some of this excess excitement. I can't seem to do anything else. lol. Right now he should be in Kuwait or damn close to it. I already did sit ups and what not but I am just too too excited for anything else. I have to do something. I've done some homework and went to Target today to pick up some paper for my homework but still my day was not filled and all I can think about is him coming home. K well I'm sure I'll be back in a bit I think I'm gonna go take that run now.
Labels: Him., Homecoming, Iraq
Change of Plans
Yes, yes, once again there is a change of time like usual. lol. Go figure!! That's the military for ya. Instead of him coming home on Thursday @ 1730, he is now coming in Friday morning @ 0800. I guess that's okay but I have to get up super early to make it down town to meet up with his parents and I think they said that they wanted to arrive on base a few hours early to make sure we get a parking spot. It's a good idea I guess but dude am I gonna be tired. I talked to his mom yesterday and she's meeting up with Jess to make a "dry run" to the base and what not and then they're going out to dinner. I don't really like it much but whatever, i'm not gonna tell her what she can and can not do because I'm uncomfortable but whatever. My cousin feels that I should go with them Wednesday when they come in but I would have to bite my tongue and surely I would slip cause well I'm not one to bite my tongue for long. lol. I did tell his mom though that if she wanted I would meet up with them on Thursday for dinner, just give me a call so I can come through. Can you believe it though?? He's coming home in just a few days. I am so excited. lol. His mom had mentioned that he is going to keep though hotel that she reserved for him for Friday and that we should take advantage of the amneties available there. Lol. I laughed cause in a way she's still kinda pushing the subject. I told her though, I don't care where we stay as long as he comes home I'm content. Really, I am!! lol.
Anyways... off the Sean subject.. lol. I'm having a good time here. lol. I miss my boys and my sissy. My 2 lil one's are sleeping with me tonight in the living room, all by choice. Loverly, huh!! I thought so too. The boys had their first football game last saturday and I don't remember the scores but the did so good. J, at the end of his game, caught a scoring pass, and E had a number of good tackles. We had a good time. My Auntie and cousin came in from El Centro and spent the weekend with us. We had fun!! I know I'm repetetive when it comes to having fun and missing my family but we don't get to do this getting together thing much. My mom and bro are coming down with me in May for the lil one's birthday and my lil bro's g/f is coming with us, and on the way down, we're pickin up my honey on the way down. I seriously can't wait.
Alright well I keep blabbing and I'm sorry but I'm gonna stop now and do some homework then go to bed. Night!!!
Labels: Family, Homecoming, Iraq, San Diego
Few more
Days that is. I'm sitting here at my sisters house this week waiting for him to come home. My computer is still not fixed but it should be by the time I get home next week so I'll be able to update after he gets home, but the fact is, is he's coming home on Friday. Can you believe it?? Friday!! I've been waiting for his punk ass to come home for 6 months at least. I'm so excited. I went to work the last day of my week and as I was working, I had a major anxiety attack and it sucked. My heart pounded and felt like it was gonna leap out of my chest, I was SOB, shaking, and crying. I couldn't stop crying. It was nerves and excitement with overwhelming feelings of things I had to do but maybe wasn't gonna get it done. It sucked and by 3 I called my therapist and calmed down and my mom and I left to wait. More waiting but whatever . I guess it's worth it. LOL. I left work thinkingm Dude when I come home, he's comin with me. Lol. I love that Idea. Alright well I just wanted to update and tell ya'll he was coming home. G2G for now.. Later
Labels: Homecoming, Iraq, Marine
Hmmm
You know, I'm sitting here at my mom's pestering my brother and I was reading a previous blog from December and wow have things changed. My step grandma, Grandma Rosie, just passed away last thursday and while she was in the hospital it was hard for me to see her there in so much pain, but after she has passed, there is so much that I see differently now. How petty things have become and of how little importance certain things are. Like I said, I reread a previous blog and since I haven't updated in a while, I have to say that my honey is seriously the best thing that could have happened to me this year. I mean, things have been pretty shitty w/ my grandma being so ill but the light beyond all of that is so much brighter than I could have ever anticipated. I let a lot of my insecurities come out and I know that's stupid considering but after everything that has happened latley, I see things way differently before, and I don't even really know why. I wasn't close to my grandma, but she was the only other one that I knew and that meant something. I was the only grandkid that would go to the convelescent w/ my mom and visit with her and that meant something to me. It's sad that things like this have to happen for people, including myself, to come to the realization that they really do take things for granted and it's terrible. I told my mom when it happened that I never want to get old and I never want her or my daddy to get old either. She laughed at me and told me they were gonna get old no matter what I wanted and then a half an hour later called me and said she wouldn't get old for a while and I didn't have to worry about that. lol. I love my mommy!! lol...
Anyways-- what sucks about all of this too is that my math teacher dropped me from the class even after I told him about my grandma. Fucker!!! On the upside of it all, my boo comes home in 3 weeks... \
K well my brother FINALLY got off the game and we're gonna get food.. Later..
