A little late entry
09062008There are days lately that seem to go on forever and days that seem to completely fly by so fast. Dawn turns to dusk and vice versa and for some reason I can’t seem to get a hold on anything. It’s irrational I know to see everything in this way but I do and I can’t help it. I can’t sleep, I eat due to stress, I’m craving chocolate all the time because I think my period is right around the corner. Everything is just so crazy right now.
He hasn’t even left yet and I want him home already. I even told him that and of course he agrees mostly because he can SEE how it’s starting to affect me already. I really hope that we can get through this, all of this. The deployment, me living with my in-laws, the distance. It’s all going to add up sooner or later and I just don’t know how this is going to work out for us. I told him though that things may not always be the best at times but I am definitely going to push myself and try my best. I’ll give it my all and that seems to be all I can do. I really wish we end up on top after all this.
Beyond that, we’re staying with my sister until he leaves and it is completely driving me nuts. Everything about here is irritating. I have something to complain about everyday. I mean there house is absolutely messy and dirty and things are always cluttered. Clutter, mess, etc all drives me nuts. I don’t know why it does but it makes me feel overwhelmed and I really hate it. I told Dh about my obsession with organization and I don’t think he quite understood until now. Now that I have everything on my plate and we’re here. I finally think that he gets it. Lol. And when we think about it makes us laugh. I know stupid thing, I’m just that way. In about a week, my sister is moving into her new house and I hope by doing so things’ll be better since it’s brand new. Not much to worry about as far as cleaning. You know? I truly can’t wait.
I’m also a little depressed about my weight. I really hate it but I’m starting on slim quick again since it helped the last time I used it and I’m starting a diet and exercise regimen. Hopefully I’ll start feeling better about myself and will be skinnier by the time he gets home. I can’t wait to have the more confident me back. I really think Dh would like it better.
Alright well, I think I’ve vented enough for now and it doesn’t quite matter if I haven’t cause my comps about to die on me so I’ll be back another day.
posted by Inkedfemme @ 12:59 PM
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