Anywhere but Here: October 2006

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Hey... So I think I told ya'll what's been going on here mostly so an update isn't needed. I did however, go to see Sean's parents and really didn't realize how much I missed them until I talked to his mom for over an hour. We had a nice chat about Sean and Amber, the Marine Corps, she couldn't resist talking about Billy but that's that. We did have a good talk though. I love talking to her and I made a promise that I wouldn't give Amber the address. It's still funny cause Sean's mom said she gave me complete and total permission to do whatever I can to take Sean away from Amber and what's funny is I don't feel that way for him, you know. He's just a friend. On top of that, Amber asked me of I had feeling for him. Not that it's any of her business but no I don't so that's that.. LOl.. it's all hella funny.

Saturday, October 28, 2006

Fist= HER FACE

I was super pissed off last night. I haven't been that mad in a long time but I wanted to fuck this bitch up. Yesterday as I was sitting at my cousins house to babysit the little ones, Billy's girlfriend calls me up and is like "Oh I hear your talking to my man bla bla." So I was like "Your point is" and then she threatened to come to my house and after that it was on. I text Bill wit you really are a bitch huh... that's hella funny. After I let it sink in a bit more I was even more pissed. I text Billy later in the evening and was like "It ain't nothing. Send her through I'll be home by midnight." I returned his call and he puts her on the phone and she denies the whole thing. I was even more pissed of and wanted to plant my fist in her fuckin face. I was so hot!! By the time I got home I was a little more settled down and then Kyle came over. I was relaxed by then and he made me even more relaxed if you get my drift, but then he made me feel like the biggest whore in the world. When I got back to the bed after using the bathroom, he was up and ready to go. So I let him leave. No big but I was pissed and he knew it. Anyways. I wanted to tell you bout my frustrations. Later

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Michigan Log

Oct. 19, 2006
I’m in Michigan now, well since the 17th I’ve been and I’ve been having lots of fun given the circumstances. Well there really isn’t any circumstances but you know what I mean. My cousin, Melinda, and I already went shopping yesterday. We spent 4 hours in her mall, it was loverly!!! We practically hit every store there was and had time to eat as well. It was nice, I really got to know her and she and I have a lot in common, more than you think we would or should since we’ve never really met each other. It’s pretty cool. I bought some CD’s, and we went into HOT TOPIC, we went to a few other places that I wish we had in Cali but unfortunately we don’t.
It’s been cold since we got here but what can I say since we came in October. That is what tends to happen in the fall. The trees are completely beautiful. The colors are so vibrant and pure I heart them so much. I’ll post pics at the bottom of this but it’s like being around a real fall. The trees in Cali are wonderful but NOT at all as gorgeous as these trees. My cousin, N, would get a kick outta these ones. Michigan, in places, is beautiful and a part of me doesn’t want to go home. The need for a new place and town and environment. It would be completely wonderful but the inner me is completely and totally a CALIFORNIA GIRL through and through. Odd I know but you never really know what you have until you have it. It’s funny, I never thought that I would want to be anywhere else and the truth is, I don’t want to be anywhere else. I love home and this trip has made me realize how much I do love home.
Today, however, I met cousin Ronnie, who is in fact a female, it’s short for Veronica, and she was real nice. Come to find out, my dad’s family is huge and I like BIG families, I think it’s awesome. I guess we’re all getting together on Sunday for a FAMILY reunion. I can’t wait. I’ll update more as my days go along. G’night…

Oh yea.. Did I tell you I’m thinking bout getting my nose pierced. Well I am and it is cheaper than at home….

Sunday, October 15, 2006

As he hid....

Lol... yes... My friend, K, was here at the house today when my dad and his GIRLFRIEND, E, rolled in, I opened the door looked out and said "Hi daddy", as I turned back around to my room to get the mail, I lost K. LOL.. turns out he hid on the side of my bed . Funniest SHIT in the world. I've never had that happen to me before so I found that very amusing. I probably should have been more sympathetic but told K to chill and it's coo, no big. I went back out to talk to my dad and told him that K was in there and my dad was like "oh is he the hiding type or the putting the clothes on type?" I told him he didn't want to know but took him back to see him and he shook his hand and what not, but I thought it was the funniest shit in the whole world. I couldn't help but laugh at him, I mean what person wouldn't? That seriously was the highlight of my night... What's even funnier is even though he's a cutie, he's a quicky, but don't tell him that... Lol.. I won't, well actually I did, but is coo cause he's back for round 2. No big, we'll see how he does. Lol..

Well he didn't end up coming.. lol.. No pun intended. He was afraid of my dad.. Lol.. What kind of shit is that. Lol. Whatever anyways... I just wanted to share my hide story with ya'll, G'night.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

And then there was

a lead to Maia. A gentlemen called today about possibly seeing Maia, my Pit Bull Mix pup, he said that he had seen her and thought he knew where she was but by the end of the day he never called and my heart broke that much more. I miss her, sounds funny but I do miss her. The house is so quiet and that much less messy. I have no plans in the near future of getting another pup on the case that she does run away, but I am a little sad about the whole thing.

Anyways, I spent the day at my cousins house with her mini's doing laundry and just chillen really. I had so much fuckin laundry it surprised the hell outta me. Loads and loads and loads. Okay well like 7 loads of laundry. But that's a lot of laundry, I hate that shit. On top of my laundry, V might be getting a vehicle and was supposed to be getting it tonight but I guess that fell through and what not. Now I am at home watching Jake Gyllenhal on Jarhead cause he's hot on that movie. Well, Imma go so late.. Gotta watch him.. G'night...

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Sleeplessness and Worry

My heart is filled with such worry about my pup that I can't sleep. It's 0:36 here and I just can NOT sleep. I wonder if she's okay, if someone has her in there home cause it's cold outside. Does she have a warm place to sleep, have they fed her. With all my rambling you'd think it was a kid but no it's just my pup. I never realized how truly quiet it would be without her playin with something she wasn't supposed to, her doing something she wasn't supposed to and me yelling at her. I had planned to get her vaccinations later today and she's supposed to get spayed next month and puppy training but it looks like that won't be happening. I feel terrible, I guess I didn't lose her, she ran away, but technically isn't it the same thing? The same meaning, lost and losing?? I would imagine it was one in the same. I really hope she's okay, I mean I'm not fully attached to her but she's my pup ya know. So yea... I just hope, I dunno what I hope...

On top of that, there was this guy that I was feeling for a little and he called me today. My friend just gave him my number on saturday I think. Anyways, he called today and was trying to have small talk and after I was telling her bout things, she said that he was probably playin me and his roommates were in on it too. It made me wonder, put shit out that and let it be. It's reasons like that that I haven't dated since Billy. I mean I like this guy and he could have potential but after she mentioned that, well, I'm cool off that. I don't need to get her nor do I want to get hurt. I know most girls don't want that but me most of all. The last time someone screwed me over it ended very bad. I just don't know what to do and I feel completley stressed now. What should I do, or feel? Grrrr. I wish things would be so much easier... I want my pup home and I don't want to be played ya feel... It will drive me up the wall... anyways.. I can't sleep so Imma try to do something productive like clean my room up.. G'night...

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Could they get any worse???

When I finally think things have settled down and are okay, everything goes to the shitter. I don't know what it is. First as you probably read previously, I lost my Uncle's keys and to them it wasn't a big deal, but to me it was a HUGE deal. Then today I left to go get my Uncle late in the day and when I got home, she wasn't there. WTF, she slipped outta her collar and left the backyard. I mean she's gotten out many times before but we've always gotten her back cause she's had her collar on her. Not this time though and she's no where to be find. I'm worried. Well Imma go finish these flyers and I'll post later. Thanks

Saturday, October 07, 2006

Lost Keys

In my attempt to go out and have fun tonight, I ended up losing, yes losing, my Uncle's car keys. How it happened I could NOT tell you but the fact is is it happened. V's brother, E, is being an ass cause he's drunk off his ass and won't let me check in V's purse for my fuckin keys. The way I see it is I knew I didn't want to go out tonight but I did cause V really wanted me to and the end result was catastrophe because tomorrow morning I have to go pic my Uncle up from the airport with his car, why cause I dropped him off in that car. Also, MY keys, car and house keys, are in his car with the keys that were lost. Well not with them but you get the idea. I fuckin knew I shouldn't have gone tonight. I knew I should have left early like I wanted to. WTF... GRRR... I'm hella pissed off right now. What am I going to do. My shits gonna get jacked cause the crew they kick it wit. AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.... Thas what I feek like right now. What the fuck am I gonna do... My dad and my Uncle are BOTH gonna kill me if I don't find that shit. I mean really what am I gonna do... Whatever man...

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Welcome HOME....

So it's the first blog of the month, huh. Well, the first blog since I got Maia. Not a lot has happened since then. I finished my externship and my cousins recently moved back up from El Centro. I got a ticket in 29 Palms and you could probably imagine the irritation in my daddy's voice. LOL!! What can I say, shit happens. I can honestly say thought that I didn't realize that I was speeding cause I was driving my cousins Kia Sportage and in that car you never know that your speeding. At this current moment though, my cousins are attempting to situate themselves into their new apartment in Alameda that seems to be going disasterous. It's terrible the shit that they have had to deal with, I mean my house is old and it has it's problems but this place, recently redone is so wrong. The heating wasn't on, the toilets not working properly, the sink gets filled up with laundry water from the second floor, etc... It's bad and what's worse is that IF they do end up getting put into another apartment, EVERYTHING has to be taken apart and put back together. My cousin is thinking bout breaking the lease and finding another place because it's that bad. It's completley terrible. I dunno.. I'll write later and keep you up dated.. late..

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