Anywhere but Here

Hmmm

You know, I'm sitting here at my mom's pestering my brother and I was reading a previous blog from December and wow have things changed. My step grandma, Grandma Rosie, just passed away last thursday and while she was in the hospital it was hard for me to see her there in so much pain, but after she has passed, there is so much that I see differently now. How petty things have become and of how little importance certain things are. Like I said, I reread a previous blog and since I haven't updated in a while, I have to say that my honey is seriously the best thing that could have happened to me this year. I mean, things have been pretty shitty w/ my grandma being so ill but the light beyond all of that is so much brighter than I could have ever anticipated. I let a lot of my insecurities come out and I know that's stupid considering but after everything that has happened latley, I see things way differently before, and I don't even really know why. I wasn't close to my grandma, but she was the only other one that I knew and that meant something. I was the only grandkid that would go to the convelescent w/ my mom and visit with her and that meant something to me. It's sad that things like this have to happen for people, including myself, to come to the realization that they really do take things for granted and it's terrible. I told my mom when it happened that I never want to get old and I never want her or my daddy to get old either. She laughed at me and told me they were gonna get old no matter what I wanted and then a half an hour later called me and said she wouldn't get old for a while and I didn't have to worry about that. lol. I love my mommy!! lol...

Anyways-- what sucks about all of this too is that my math teacher dropped me from the class even after I told him about my grandma. Fucker!!! On the upside of it all, my boo comes home in 3 weeks... \

K well my brother FINALLY got off the game and we're gonna get food.. Later..

posted by Inkedfemme @ 6:59 PM