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I wonder sometimes, if it's possible to love someone more than every fiber of your being or as my husband put it tonight, " more than all the stars, planets, universes', and empty space in all the sky!" I mean is it really possible to love and be loved that much? It's hard to believe at times that it's been almost 3 years since we got married and started our life together and almost a year and a half since our daughter was born. With every day that passes by I somehow seem to love him more and more. So I guess somehow it is possible. Sometimes I feel like I'm the luckiest woman in the world (I'm sure most feel that way) and that at any moment it's going to be taken away from me. Guess that's the pessimist in me. lol. But really though, how can life be this good. You know? Like that cliche... if it looks to good to be true it probably is.It's also hard to believe that it's been 4 years since my "stunt" and my life was going down hill and fast. All of sudden it seemed to get better and better and seems to continue on that road. Four years ago this month, actually I think it was this day even I was laying in an ER bed thinking my life was over; wishing my life was over. And now I'm thankful to TPTB for giving me a second chance and starting over in a sense. For helping me find myself and not only myself but the man of my dreams. I used to say that when DH and I connected again and started our relationship and then quickly married that he saved me!! To this day I believe that he did. He made me want to be a better person and even though I have my moments he loves me and I want to be better for him. Then he gave me the gift of motherhood. We couldn't be happier! We may not have all the money in the world but he provides for us. We go not wanting to much and even though at the end of the pay period we're down to pennies, we're as happy as can be, especially when we're together.
It's things like this that make me wonder about people who treat there families badly or have major self-pity issues when they have people who care for them and love them and want to be with them. Idk where I'm going with this but it's just one of those things that I think about from time to time when my husband says the sweetest thing to me or cuddles me unexpectedly. Some days they feel few and far between but it truly is a gift to love and be loved.
posted by Inkedfemme @ 8:39 PM
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