Far in between
I would usually write in my journal, which is the reason for such far between entries, but tonight I feel the need to blog here. Not a whole lot has been really going on, my hubby's out to the field for a little while and I'm staying here at my sisters until friday cause we're going to my aunt's house and then off to Vegas on Sat.Staying here is weird. I realized why I don't do it as often any more, besides the fact that I do have my own place about 25 or so minutes from here. It's filthy and I feel disgusting when I stay here. It's sad to say cause I love my sister and her family but geez they're slobs. How wrong is that of me to say, especially to a bunch of strangers. Yesterday, I got here because I had my youngest nephew since sunday and had to take him home. I should of just waited until friday to bring him home but I felt the need to pass him on to his own parents. I love him, but I hope to TPTB that my daughter is NOT as rambunctious as him. Anyways, back to what I was saying, since I seem to be rambling about it, I brought him home yesterday and before I would use the bathroom I had to scrub and disinfect the place because it was that gross. I hate it! You know how some people go to public bathrooms and hover over the toilet so there bottoms don't touch, that's how I am when I just come to visit for a few hours. It's so--- gross!! Today I spent the day or at least half the day, picking up the living room and dining area and vacuuming because I swear they only vacuum once every 6 months. Everytime I come and bring my dog with me, she scavengers all around the house because they forever have food on the floor. By the time they all came home, it was a mess again and that was even after I told her boys that they had to pick up there toys and put them away when they were done. On top of all that, there kitchen is disgusting and my sister makes my 11yr old nephew do the dishes , so I'm always afraid to use the dishes in fear that they are not washed properly. It's heartbreaking sometimes how much responsiblity my older nephews have. When can they just be kids? IDK. Like I said, I finally realized why I stopped visiting so much.
My hubby's out for training a while but close enought to be able to come home for Easter and at least spend that holiday with me. We don't talk as much, I guess because by the time he gets off work, he's probably tired after he showers and stuff. That's okay though. Honestly, now that I've been doing it on and off all year pretty much, it's easier. I don't mind when he doesn't call and honestly, at least for now, I don't worry. If anything happened someone would get a hold of me somehow. I miss him though, but the way I see it, shit happens and this is the life we chose.
I did, however, get to talk to him a little today cause I lost the dog. Well more like she ran away and I called him crying becuase I was looking everywhere and she wasn't coming to my call. She never goes that far and she always comes when I call or clap. I cried, only in short spurts though. She was sun bathing on my sisters porch and usually she stays put and doesn't go far even if she leaves the porch, but I was on the phone with my mom for a little bit and looked over to where she was and she wasn't there. I looked around my sister's place for her and she didn't come so I knew something was wrong. My nephew and I walked around her complex calling her name and clapping and she didn't come. I asked some cleaning ladies, about 2 buildings over, if they'd seen her and they said no. By our second round, they saw us walking back up and waved us over and there she was, on the second floor of the apt that they were cleaning. I brought her home and cried. Sean was like "well you need to keep a better eye on her". Like I didn't feel bad enough. Whatever though, she hasn't really left my sight or leash since. She really scared me.
Besides all that business, everything else has been pretty mellow. Milei's, the baby, has been mostly mellow today. She has her moments but she's been pretty chill so nothing really knew with her.
Everything seems to be going peachy now. We're leaving for Vegas over the weekend so I doubt that I'll be around much in the next few days like usual but eventually I'll make my way back. It happens :)
posted by Inkedfemme @ 8:17 PM
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