Anywhere but Here

And when

all else goes bad.. all you have is battle marks, that may scar and forever be a reminder of your weakest point, weakest moment. For some strange reason, last night I broke completley down and as I look back at last night, old patterns don't help the situation but for some reason can not be avoided. It helps for 2 seconds, to feel the physical pain rather than the emotional pain of not knowing what's wrong but crying for hours until finally you cry yourself to sleep, and the only thing that kept me from going further and doing more was my sisters birthday card and the children I have yet to have. Unfortunatley at the moment, I don't know if I want to have kids because I don't want them going through what I am going through with depression, but if these constant reminders can keep me grounded for a while then maybe it wasn't all bad, or maybe it was. I don't know.. I guess I'll be back later tonight..

posted by Inkedfemme @ 12:10 PM