Another night...
of lonliness and insomnia. I don't seem to know what the problem is but I can NOT sleep for the life of me. I tried meditating because that usually works for me but not tonight. I guess with everything going on latley it's all been on my mind, I just can't narrow it down to one thing right now. I guess today it was the baby thing. I mean I have been having all these symptoms but when I took urine tests they were negative and then when I took a blood test it came out negative as well. I just don't seem to know what's wrong with me. I guess I wanted a baby more than I thought I had. I really wanted it even if that meant giving up my life here to move away. Life, or rather I, just seem so lonley lately.I miss my ex and it dawned on me today that it's almost been a year since we broke up, a year in October. I guess that too is bothering me. Everything all at once is just waying down on me again. Well not like that again, but again nonetheless. I never imagined I'd love someone the way I still love him but that's not gonna change right now and I don't know what to do with myself. I hate love, which is the reason I do not date and why I am NEVER getting married, but that's just me.
Anyways, I think I just needed to vent for a few minutes, so Imma get to bed and be back tomorrow. I am almost positive that I am not gonna be able to sleep again.. G'night
posted by Inkedfemme @ 11:18 PM
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