Anywhere but Here

My heart is soo FAR AWAY

Have I told you how much I hate waiting? I hate waiting and wondering because my mind tends to wonder and a wondering mind gets me no where except worry lines. Lol. No really it does in the middle of my forehead. I know it's probably because he's busy and he did tell me had an upcoming project but wasn't sure how much he could actually tell me and after I wrote him back and asked if it was anythi g that I should be worried about, he didn't write back or call. It's sunday night now and he hasn't called ALL day. That's not normal for him, that and I have to work tomorrow, again something unusual because I don't work Monday's but I'm filling in for another co-worker. I don't mind that so much but what if he calls? My life right now works around him and when he's gonna call me. I miss him so much! I hate sleeping alone and the more I think about it and the closer it gets to his return the more anxious I get and the less sleep I get as well. You know I stay away from the news and the papers and really anything to do with Iraq and the war but on occasion I do randomly pick up a magazine and read whatever articles are in them. I read about how close some troops get to coming home but go on one last mission and I can't help but relate it to him right now. I don't know it's all too confusing. All I want is him right now. I want him home with me, with his family. Is that selfish of me to think that to want that. My heart aches when I think of him being that far away but I will be so glad when he gets home. Alright, my movies over, my worries are very broad and I need to get some sleep.

Labels: falling in love, Him., Iraq, worries

posted by Inkedfemme @ 10:48 PM